feet and tumbling

so, i kept forgetting to mention that seamus has learned to do summersaults all on her own. its pretty funny and she seems to like to do them. very impressive. she can also count like crazy these days. she will count her fingers and pretty much anything there is to count.
i went to the foot doctor yesterday and he made fun of my slow ramp up to 14 minutes of jogging. i wasn't offended though but told him i had to ramp up slowly to avoid injury and imagine what would have happened had i not! anyway, the heel issue is achilles insertion tendonitis or something like that due to some very tight achilles. i ahve to do some stretches and stuff and he is making me some new orthodics since mine are so 1992.
sirus was talking up a storm last night. he was sitting on eric's lap just talking away. he likes to talk. we don't remember seamus talking as much as he does at this age so he must take after his dad.

new car new car

now that i am back at work the drama of the new car is back. i have been itching for a new car for the past few years but now that my trusty pontiac is approacing the 10 year mark in may, i am thinking i might have to make my move. i want to get a volvo but eric doesn't really want us to be a 2 volvo family but when i ask him what else he is thinking of he says we should just look around. i have looked and i would like another volvo. if i am going to spend 1-2 hours a day in my car, i want it to be a semi luxourious 1-2 hours. we will see what happens but i am hoping it will be sooner rather then later.

seamus will be turning two in a few days and that is totally unreal to me. i can't beleive it has gone by so quickly. she is going to get a real haircut the day before her birthday, too. the ones i have been giving her just aren't doing her any justice. if she would be more cooperative when it comes to putting her hair in pony tails my hair cuts would be fine, but those pony tails last for all of 5 seconds on a good day. we will see how it goes.

there was lots of rain over the weekend. rediculous amounts.

we went to the bike store and got some new tires, a new chain and new cassette for my bike. that is very exciting. the plan is that when it gets nicer i will ride into work at least once a week, maybe even twice and then after work eric will come drop off the car and the kids and he then he will ride in the evening. i am looking forward to it. the morning works better for me since i haven't had much luck with ever being motivated to make the trip home - just too tired and totally uphill the whole way. now all i need is a new rear wheel. i wonder if i can still fit on a bike seat, it has been so long.

creepy glow in the dark butterflies crawl on my face

so, i went to the doctor this morning to discuss my foot. she doesn't seem to think that my pain and swelling and the likes are plantarted at all or maybe she does but she didn't say so. she says it looks like inflamation of where the achillies attaches to the heel. maybe its all the same thing i don't know, but she suggested i see a foot doctor since foot pain is not a new thing for me. i have an appointment for the 30th.
yesterday i went shopping for shoes that don't have high heels and that don't make me feel frumpy. the toenail on my right foot seems to be attaching itself so far so i decided it was ok to try on some shoes that weren't open toed. this turned out to be relatively sucessful. i wound up with two pairs. i got me some clarks, parsnips, new this season but also on sale, shown here:

they are cute and comfortable and even the doctor commented on them. the others are just some pointy toed black flats that i can wear with dress pants and even skirts. we will see how i manage to function 2 inches shorter then normal.

seamus and sirus were up to their usual shennanigans this weekend although seamus has now discovered the crack that is disguised as bob the builder. she wanted to watch it non stop and i have to admit i let her watch it quite a bit while eric was out riding his bike. the theme song is very catchy. it is performed by neil morrissey who i was hopping was the morrissey from the smiths but it is not. still, a very catchy tune. sirus sometimes sleeps very well and then sometimes doesn't sleep well at all. lately he hasn't been sleeping well. he is easy to get back to sleep once he wakes up but he just wakes up and gets so upset that i have to go get him. that plus he turns himself and will be bopping his head against the crib rails or he will get his feet stuck between them. he is so big!

the seahawks are going to the super bowl which is exciting and its all because sirus was wearing his sleepasaurus jammies yesterday that resemble seahawks colors. he also seemed to be very interested in the game while having tummy time.

i will totally win

so, the plantar is worse then ever despite the icing, the ibuprofining, the clog wearing, the no exercising, all of it. then, last night, to make everything even better, i was washing dishes, and turned to reach for something and managed to stubb the big toe of my other foot on the oven. ya know, on the totaly metal drawer that is underneath of the oven. now, i have stubbed my toes many times and it usually hurts but this time, it turned into a gory mess. blood was shooting out all over the place as the nail was ripped all the way back. totally gross, totally painful, totally throbbing. totally requiring me to not be able to wear even the clogs any more. my work wardrobe takes an even bigger step backwards. good thing i was all hippy dippy in my younger days and that i have kept my 20 year old birkenstocks because they are the only thing i can wear right now - with socks at least. so after they take off my fascia foot along with at least my big toe with no toenail, i will win the weight loss contest at work with little effort.

or is it that my fasciitis is plantared?

so i haven't actually looked at my feet very much, but last night eric and i took a look, since it was our anniversary and all, and did notice that my ankle is a bit swollen. hmph. booshiat. and because i am all gimpy my back is tweaking and my right knee is starting to hurt. i need to figure out how to walk. i have a drs appointment on monday so i think i might just slide this one in under the radar while i am there.
i have been thinking about the dumb plantar fasciitis commerical and it makes me think about the other dumb commercials out there. for instance the one for Eaton Technical College where two girls are talking and one is depressed about her job prospects. her friend asks her if she has thought about Eaton and the depressed girl says she isn't concerned about her diet... har-d-har-har. so dumb.
the other dumb commercial i can't stand is the one for Check into Cash. ugh, i hate the way they say check into cash and they say it 2937420735872 times during their 15 second slot. it annoyes me to the brink.
last year's anniversary celebration ultimately resulted in the birth of wonderful sirus. while we love sirus very much and especially so since he woke up only once last night and the night before, conception is not an anniversary tradition that we would like to take on. neither is what we did last night - had one dessert for each year that we have been married. in 20 years that would be a lot of dessert. the year before the sirus conception i was way pregnant with seamus and we ate donuts all day to the point where we were all pissed off at each other. these are all things we don't want to repeat. we need to figure something out for next year.
i have joined the weight loss contest at work. silly silly but we will see what happens. i have lost 36 of the 40 pounds i gained while pregnant with sirus, but it would be nice to be able to wear the obscene denim cut off shorts from highschool that eric has been begging me to wear ever since he first saw them stuffed in the dresser drawer in my old bedroom at my mom's house. i will keep you posted. if they have to chop off my foot inorder to make it not hurt, i am sure to win.

my plantar is fasciated

so, allie has sent me her diagnosis and while i am not happy with it, i am pretty sure she is correct. she is an avid runner and has had plenty of feet issues in her time, so i think she is right on in her suspision of plantar fascitis. now, i am ok with it being plantar fascitis except for one thing - they have the absoulue DUMBEST commercials about it on the radio. i hate them and i hate how they say plantar and the dumb guys is like huh? and i dont want anything associated with that dumb commercial. but alas, that commercial was made for me.
so no running - i won't ever make it to 16 minutes at least not any time soon.
i also will not be able to be 6'1" for at least the next few weeks because i can't wear any of my heels. that blows. not only do i not feel the pain when i wear the heels, the only non-heel shoes i have are clogs, running shoes and sandals - none of which go with my work atire at all. i will power through this though. there are much worse things in life then wearing sandals in the middle of seattle's attempt at beating its record for most straight days of rain.

the agony of defeet

so, my running career is over i think. before i even managed to get myself to 16 minutes. ok, hopefuly that is not the case but my heel is KILLING me. the worse thing is going down stairs - something about how my foot moves while going down stairs is just the worst. walking kind of sucks, too, unless i am on my toes or in high heels. what am i going to do/ this is sooooo lame.
but there is sun today! i can see it out the bedroom window!! and the seahawks are 1 game away from making it to the super bowl. and i got some new sunglasses yesterday so i can try them out today. i won't even talk about the handbag.

is it justifiable?

how can i get away with buying a $450 hand bag? i am trying to convince myself as to how it would be ok to do, but really it isn't ok at all. but if my computer fits in it, plus a bunch of other crap, is it ok?

i cried, it rained, i went shopping

so this morning while at work and while partaking in my morning pumping regime, i just broke down and started to cry. it makes me sad to be away from my babies and i miss them so much. when i get home i am so tired but i have been trying to spend as much time with them as i can, but i miss them and i feel like i am missing out on so much stuff. to top it off i am having a hard time getting back into the groove at work. i am going to CA on monday so hopefully that will help with the work side of it, but not so much with the missing of the babies.
wouldn't you miss this little guy, too?

we have had lots of rain lately, like 24 days straight or something. and its not typical seattle drizzle, it is rain. i am thinking that is contributing to my sadness. i am hoping it will be sunny and warm in CA so that i can get a dose of it and maybe that will help.
yeah, so i went shopping because there wasn't much i could do about missing the bebes and there isn't much i can do about the rain. so shop i must.
my foot still hurts but not as bad as last night. i did not wear the clogs today. i wore some boots but they weren't the 3 inch stilettos that caused the problem in the first place. ok, the other boots aren't really stilettos but they certainly do not have a sensible heal on them at all. the bad arse motorcycle boots i have on today are a bit more sensible.

stupid favorite boots

so, i am a little irritated at the moment. i am having heel pain. so much so that it hurts to flex my foot when i walk. but, only when i walk without high heels on.
so we went for our 14 minute run today at lunch time. it was pouring down rain, i think there was even some hail it seemed as though. so we didn't get our full pre run walk to warm up in and we just started going. about 7 minutes in i noticed my left foot was hurting some but it was ok i figured since we had only 7 more minutes. i went to the locker room, got dressed, put on my lovely high heeled boots and went on my merry way. no more heel pain. a few hours later i came home and took of those lovely boots and wow, my foot just doesn't work. it hurts! once again i curse the multi level living that eric has worked so hard to provide for us, but not because i am tired of going up and down the stairs like before, but because the stairs hurt my foot. i go up and down the stairs like seamus - both feet hit each stair. i feel like monica in that episode of friends where she spent some huge amount of money on boots that she totally loved but then couldn't wear because they hurt her feet too much. she eventually loses them when she stops to take them off on the sidewalk somewhere. i won't lose my lovely boots because my feet weren't hurting while wearing them, but they have been packed away and i will wear the clogs for a few days and hope the heel gets better soon. i thought the slooooow ramp up would prevent this type of thing. hopefully it is just a fluke.

oh, i ruined it!

so, i was supposed to floss last ngiht but i didn't!! i was only day 4 of the new year and only the 2nd time of the new year that i was supposed to floss and i did not do it!!
ok, so I kind of have an excuse and by saying that i will do it at least 3 times a week makes it so i can floss today to make up for it. but still, i wanted to stick to my schedule. my excuse was that i don't think i could have phisically done it. here is the whole story:
so at lunch time, the coworker and i went for out 8 minute run (friday it will be 10!). while i was getting ready though, i kind of had a headache but then during the run and after i was feeling fine. as the rest of the day went on though i started to feel a little not well. by the time i left work i was feeling very not well. on the drive home i started to worry that maybe i had food poisoning or something but i am pretty sure it was just a migraine. i felt like i was going to throw up but was all worried about throwing up all overmyself and then having to drive the rest of the way covered by puke. anyway, i made it home puke free and went straight in to take a shower in case it was a sinus headache, and maybe that would help. eric and seamus were eating dinner with sirus looking on. after my shower i went right to bed, i couldn't function at all. i was so sad because those babies are so darn adorable and i only saw them for such a short time. i did get up at around 7 and hung out with them until their bedtimes. it was the first time eric had put sirus to bed and it all went well, so that is good. then i began asking eric to do all kinds of various things for me. i was still in my bathrobe from my shower so that i how bad i was. i got hooked on the biggest looser family edition and stayed up until 10 in order to see how it ended then we went to bed. i was still feeling not so well, but the horrible headache was pretty much gone and i had eaten some toast and had some water, but i could not get myself up the stairs to the bathroom to pee let alone brush my teeth and floss. sirus woke up 3 times during the night, each time i fell asleep in the chair while holding him. i still felt a little like arse this morning and then i have gotten a little worse as the day has gone by. i am not so sure about this.

resolve

so i have a bunch of new years resolutions this year. i usually don't have any because there usually isn't anything that i want to work towards. this year there are a bunch and i will mention just a few here. one being that i will floss my teeth at least 3 times a week. i do not floss enough, so 3 times a week will be way better then none at all. to make sure I do it, it will be a monday, wednesday, friday thing.
while on maternity leave i used the company sponsored gym membership every other day and it was great. i could use a travel pass for the gym right by my house. now going back to work i want to schedule it into my day which if i want to use the gym, its like 238277236 miles away and will eat up way too much of my day. so i have convinced two of my co-workers to go on lunch time runs with me. this accomplishes two things - i can save money by not going out to lunch all of the time, and i can work on my fittness a little. this works well because the one had already commiteed himself to running the vancouver marathon in april - committed by registering, reserving his hotel, buying his amtrack ticket all of that. the other we confronted today and he was like - what the hell, ok. so we will start out slow because we are all pretty much out of shape. i am all concerned about the shin splints because that is what plagues me most, but i felt fine yesterday after my 5 minute jog. yes, i said 5 minute jog but i also said we would start out slow. tomorrow we will do 8 minutes, and the rest will be walking.... and it will gradually increase over time... i would like to do the st patricks day dash which is "nearly" 3 miles i think and it would be fun because we could bring seamus along and then eric and i want to do the sea fair half marathon in july or august if they are having it this year. depending on how that goes we might try the seattle marathon, but i did a marathon in 1998 and that was all fine and dandy and i don't know if i really need to do another one, unless i am feeling ok with this whole running thing. i hate to run but its not like cycling in that it doesn't make me so super hungry that i wind up eating my own hand or anything. i also want to do the danskin triathlon, ugh but i don't know about this whole lake swimming thing.... anyway, those are some of the things i want to accomplish this year.
i also want to be a better mom, wife, daughter, friend and accomplish more at work. i have some specific goals around each of those, but i don't want to put all that here because someone might make me be accountable for them if i do.