dodged that bullet

so, i am going to let you in on something that i don't think i have ever told any of my dearest friends, ever.


i almost dated howard stern.


let me explain. i was going through some papers that i found back from when i was modeling as a teenager. (that in itself most of the friends i have made after highschool don't know because its a little embarrassing and i do'nt want people wondering how i could have done that when i have such a giant zit on my chin and look so haggared all the time). i was chosen from suposedly thousands of girls to be in the elete look of the year competition, which is a pretty big deal and was pretty exciting but at the same time back then i really didn't have a good understanding of what it meant. even though i didn't win or wasn't even a finalist, i can kick myself up and down all over the place because of the letter i came accross today. it was from the elete agency in NY saying that even though i didn't advance in the competetion they wanted me to come to their offices to see them and get my modeling on. WHAT? why didn't i do that? what is wrong with me? did i never read that letter? i really do't remember ever seeing it, WTF!!!! i digress. anyway, also amonst the papers was the program from the competition that listed all of the girls names. there was bambi and heather and jodie and a handful of other girls, but then there was beth. i remember her being really pretty and she advanced in the competition but they wanted her to cut her hair and if i recall, she wasn't so into that so i don't know what happened with her. bambi advanced, too but they told her she had to get her giggly arse in shape....


well, let me tell you what happened to beth. like i said i was looking at the program, and i remembered her, but her name, it sounded so familiar but i just coulodn't figure it out so i googled her. so i found someone with the same name on IMDB and the photos looked similar to what i remember her looking like, she was about the right age, the right height and from pittsburgh pa. i dug out the tape from the competetion because we had to say our names, ages and where we were from. and hot damn it was her. same person. beth ostrosky. i told eric and the first thing out of his mouth was "wow, just imagine, if you had kept modeling you could have been dating Howard Stern, too" when i old my mom she said she was glad that i wsan't dating howard stern because she didn't think she would like him as a son in law.

i am so drunk

right now, ona friday night at 8:21. ok, not SOOOOO drunk but the thought of doing some data analysis right now cracks me up and makes me want to see what i would come up with. AND we are watching snakes on a plane.

today was a better then the previous days of the week. i still have no desire to run, i still have no desire to do anything but cry, and i still have a giant zit on my chin. it is so giant that when i went to get the tequila at the likker sto' the cashier guy stood there looking at me and couldn't decide whether to card me. i figure his thot process was as follows" this person looks over 30. yep, totally over 30 - she has on those cloggs, she has on that terrible company logo fleece jacket, she looks over 30, buuuuuut, that zit! she has that zit. might be under 21. gotta check." that is totally how it went.

now, eric is making me another drink, i am going to snack on some tostitos and i would do some crazy analysis but we are too damn cheap to pay for the office program and our free trail ran out so i am going to play some online family feud or something. i love it.

we just spent 5 minutes trying to determine where all the salt in my margarita is and eric ends that with "who puts a bunch of deadly snakes on a plane, anyways."

BIG NEWS, i can't beleive i almost forgot! so, seamus goes to gymnastics and totally loves it. at rhe end of the first session she completed in her evaluation her coach said she cold do everything very well and would be able to move up to the next level when she was 3. i of course knew this already because seamus is awesome. anyway this most recent session started and seamus has been having all kinds of fun. eric told me that in her class yesterday she was walking on the balance beam backwards, all by herself! at the end of class the coach stopped eric to talk about seamus's progress. apparently she is doing sooooo well, that when she turns 3 they want her to by pass the next level and go into their junior olympic development program. so of coures her whole life flashes in front of my eyes and sheis on her way to the olympics, the first 5'11" olympic gymmnast who is also an olympic swimmer, mtn biker, runner, super model cheerleader with phds from harvard, MIT, BU and UW, but, eric told the coach that yes, she can try it but if the group size and the program is too much then she will go back into one of the other groups. because we really do want her to keep having fun! i am really proud of her though. she is so sweet, so smart and absolutly amazing!

OH MY GAWD. can they really be serious with this movie??? what the hell. O)H MY GAWD again!!!! no wonder this movie totally sucked at the box office. snakes do not hang out in airplane toilets. it is only getting worse and worse. ok, so now it is less hokey, most people are bitten or dead and they are in survivial mode.

oh pawpi, what are we going to do!

football

Howland High School Football coach - Dick Angle

too small

so today is the day that i decided to only wear things that don't fit. i have one some jeans that are way too tight. i asked eric if they were ok and he just kind of looked at me and was like, well, if you are going to wear that jacket all day then yeah that should be ok. i paired them up with some shoes that TOTALLY don't fit. but they are from england and they have monkeys on them and how can my big old american feet with the messed up toes expect to fit nicely into english moneky shoes? but eric did say that the shoes at least off set some of the terribly too smallness of the jeans.
so my digestive system is totally screwed. that is one of the things i learned from the doctors. i kind of knew it but they confirmed it and they gave me some stuff to drink every day to make it better. it works and makes me feel better but ya know how when you feel terrible about everything else in your life you just stop doing the things that make you feel better, ya know, like taking the medicine that makes you better? anyway, this morning i was drinking it and seamus asked if it was juice. i said no, its medicine. it tastes like tang. did i ever mention the time i sent the email to th entire company with the subject line of "do you like tang?" i got in trouble for that one. i legitamitely had some orange flavored drink mix - tang to give away but they knew i had other intentions so i got in trouble. but it was only in response to when someone sent out an email about the moisture festival. COME ON. and just the other day someone sent out one about The Big Dump 2007 in regards to the snow. i wonder if they got in trouble. anyway. i took it today so maybe i will feel better. maybe i will get on the treadmill after work and go for a little jog- my leg is feeling better afterall, and maybe, just maybe i won't eat a gallon of icecream and 4 dozen cookies today either.

#2

eric and the kids came to visit me at work today. i needed the pick me up because i am depressed as all hell.
in the middle of the night last night eric shoved me off the bed, hit me and pulled my hair and pushed and pulled me all over the place. aparently he had a dream that seamus was about to fall off a cliff and he was reaching out to grab her. but he took it all out on me. he says he went back to sleep and he had the dream again. i on the otherhand had kept waking up bawling. i can't remember my dreams, i just know i was crying in them and just kept waking up crying. not a good night in our house.
so after the kids visited me apparently one of them, i won't say which because i don't want to embarrass anyone, pooed in the parking lot. that makes me laugh.
so i have been a mess at work. today i told my boss i was drinking vodka tonics at work. ok, so to give me a little credit, this was only after he asked me if i was smoking and i said no because i was in the office and that is not allowed. ok, so really i wasn't doing any of that. i was crying. AGAIN. that was a big sniffle.
so i had to go home and buy some jeans that are so damn tight they are pretty obscene. i have not gone running in forever and i had two servings of ice cream this evening. that is not much better then the 3 giant cookies with ice cream i had yesterday. ok, so if i eat the candy at work, it doesn't really count right? i told doug that the next time i see him i will be 400 pounds. his response to that was - hey, i saw you when you were pregnant and you weren't even close to that. he doubts i will hit 4-hundy.
i was at werk and totally bummed out and depressed and just a mess. i was telling one of my co-workers that i was hoping something good would happen soon because i could really go for some good news. tell me your good news people!! leave me some comments cuz i love comments and they make my day.

not a teenager anymo

so, i was in la as you know. i wore the fancy new shoes as i mentioned. once again i have been injured by my shoes.. ok, so when i was looking for the photo i read the description and found that they are 4" heels. while i am irritated that i am as injured as i am, at least i was injured by the 4-ers and not 1- or 2-ers. i push myself to the limits!! anyway, i can't walk. my left calf is totally screwed. on the right side. if i barely even touch it it totally kills. what a mess. i will be icing and taking it easy and not running for a bit. what a mess.

we did go for a family walk today tho. sirus got a haircut. seamus is going to be 3 in a few weeks and the pressure is on to try to figure out what kind of cake to make her.

eric ordered us a new couch for our family room. we didn't mean to find one we liked. we are content, although a little embarrassed, to keep the one we have now. ya know, the one covered in the blueberry waffle puke, the one where the cushions are upside down with the contrasting fabric facing upwards because the other side has holes. yeah, that one. but we happened up one we liked and it was a good price, now we just have to wait 7-10 weeks. that is longer then it takes to get a passport.

how come

when i go to the new stand at the airport there are 8 magazines about guns, most with HAND GUNs as either the title or major subject line? and one with knife, all with big fatty photos of guns and knives? seems strange to me.

if johnny were still alive

i am pretty sure i remember that way back a long time ago, johnny carson said something to the effect that he wouldn't ever get married again unless it snowed in the valley. well, i think that not too long after he said that it snowed in the valley and i am pretty sure he got married again. i may be making all of that up but for some reason it sounds familiar to me. i bring it up because, gosh darnit, i left the snow in seattle to come to LA and it snowed here today. not just in the valley but in malibu, too. i was looking for some sun and i got more snow.

and i packed a skirt to wear tomorrow with my fancy new shoes. do you realize i haven't worn a skirt to work since i was pregnant with sirus? remember that skirt i wore back then, the same one EVERY DAY. anyway, so now i will wear a skirt nad will freeze my arse off.

so i checked into the hotel today and went to get some dinner. while i was waiting for my to-go order i went to the bar and got a beer. a fat tire. they brought me a 22 ounce bottle. as a result of that, and the fact that they wouldn't let me take it with me, i ate my to go order in the bar. after that big bear i was energized so i went over to the gym, but only after watching some very funny seattle american idol auditions. they said they will never come to seattle again but i may have mentioned at some point that if i were to ever audition for american idol, that is if i was somehow not old anymore, i would sing cecilia by simon and garfunkel. that would be my song.

so tomorrow is eric and my 5 year anniversary! whoa! its gone by quick! but alas i will be in LA in the snow in my fancy new shoes and skirt freezing my arse off.

i found out that i am not a man, so that is good. i also found out that i have high cholesterol, but really its good because the bad cholesterol is really low and the good cholesterol is really high, so all in all it is good. yeah, i found all that out after i found out i shrank. i have still not recovered from that yet.

so i was ok with "benifer" when ben asslick and jlo were dating. i thot that was ok. what i do not like is brangelina, vaughniston, tomkat and i really do not like tomkitten. dumb. don't they know that is over used. when you have the news caster dude on the 11 o'clock news referring to brangelina, its just really really bad and dumb. please refer to me and eric as caric, or maybe errie, or maybe catwood and eatwood.

here are some babies in the snow photos, I like that seamus has on her sungalsses and that sirus was sweeping the snow. poor sirus has no mittens!!

yum - homemade blueberry waffles

not so yum - those same blueberry waffles being spewed out of an almost 3 year old all over the white carpeting.

who knew that her stomach could hold so much and who knew that the smell would be here to stay. the carpet is only a year old and still looks great, but today i suggested that maybe we swap it out for another type of puke resistant floor covering.

poor little girl though. sirus and i were making the bed in the other room and i heard this terrible noise. i headed out into the family room to see her runnning towards me, stop and spew some more. i took her in the bathroom and it just kept coming out. when it finally stopped she turned to me and cried "get it off of me!!!" it was scary and freaky and stinky. i cleaned her up and sat her down. i asked her if she put anything in her mouth and she said yes. i about died. i asked her what she put in there and she said waffles. i sighed and asked if she put anything else in there and she said no. 2 minutes later and she was bouncing on the bed as though nothing ever happened. i on the other hand spent the next 4 hours cleaning up puke and trying to get it out of the carpet. i got all of the blue color out but even now, 14 hours later - the smell! oh the terrible smell. eric even rented the carpet cleaner!! we are going to run it again tonight but ugh. i still have no idea why she puked and that concerns me.

so, would you like to come for a visit?

i take offense

just because some people think i am freakishly tall, and really i am not so tall anymore afterall, does NOT, i repeat, does NOT mean if you were to get me an article of clothing as a gift that you need to get me XXL. on that same vein, when referring to my height, say i am tall, not big. they are not the same.

$15000 REDUCTION.

Tons of possibilities! Quiet, private road leads to secluded man home with MIL apt below. Man home has 2 bed, full bath and 3/4 bath, fireplace. MIL has 2 bed 1 bath, woodstove, and wet bar.

what the hell, its a man home.

ok, that was dramatic

i accidentally hit enter instead of tab and it posted!

ok, so i went to the doctor this morning and something that i had feared for a long time but wasn't ever sure of was confirmed. it turns out that i am only 5'9.25" and not the 5'10" that i have thought for so many years.

the nurse who checked my height said that i may have been 5'10" but now am shrinking but that is normal. that is depressing to me but i am not totally convinced that i was ever really 5'10". i just assumed i was because someone in highschool who said they were 5'8" said i was at least 2" taller then them.

they are checking my testosterone levels at the doctors to see if maybe that is the root of all of my issues. what is that supposed to mean!!

when i told eric he said that our whole relationship has been built on lies. and then i had to remind him that when we first started dating that he claimed to wear size 13 shoes... no pair of shoes that he has bought since we got together has been above a 12.

my world has just collapsed.

never never never

so i went and took a swimming lesson today. i haven't swam since september and i am totally pout of swimming shape. i have some work to do if i am going to be able to swim a mile in july.

i registered eric for the xterra world championships in october. we will be going to hawaii!! i am trying to plan it and thot i had it all figured out, including that the airplne tickets will be free because of frequent flyer miles, but then i realized we would be gone over halloween. i just don't think i can do that. the kids will only be little once and each year that passes they will be that much closer to not wanting to get dressed up and all of that. there are just so few years and even though i am sure whoever wound up watching them while we would be away would get them in their costumes and they would probably not even realize we weren't there, i just don't think i can miss it. i told eric and mentioned that we might wind up going sooner and leaving sooner after the race, his response was that he didn't think he wanted tojust hang out before the race for too long. we will not go to hawaii for the weekend. maybe i will go by myself and then he can some whenever. i am excited none the less.

AND i am working on finalizing all the toronto plans! how fun! its going to be crazy!!

swo, another reason why i won't ever get promoted... i was on the phone with my boss and i told him i wasn't feeling very well. he told me that i need to take better care of myself but i told him that i think it was beause i had been on vacation and then re-entered the big pool of germs that is the work place. that is a totally acceptable answer until i added, that maybe i should just stop licking the doorknobs. even that would have been ok if when he asked why i would do that i would have just told him it was an OCD thing or something (more on that some other time) but no, i had to tell them they were magically delicious. whatever. someone asked me what my new years resolutions were and i mentioned some goals and stuff, but really i think i should just shut up. and get a raise.

i took the kids shopping yesterday and it was SO MUCH FUN. yes, it took 45 minutes for us to just get out the door and into the car, but once we were off, it was great. seamus added a new element of fun to the whole trying stuff on -everytime we were all in the dressing room, right when i would say, have my shirt off, or maybe my pants or maybe both, she would open the door or the curtain and put me on display. between her and sirus and the totally awesome shoes and the 1/2 priced fruit cake from harry & david, it was a totally fun adventrue for us. now, if only i would have gotten that handbag....

dancing with lisa rinna's lips

so i took my mom to see the dancing with the stars tour when they stopped in at key arena dec 22. i went not really knowing what to expect, but since my mom is ballroom dancer extraordinare and she watched the show on tv i thot it would be fun to go see. the dancing was really pretty amazing. they put on a great show. while they had to focus some on the celebrities, they did a really good job of putting a lot of emphasis on the pro dancers, which was good because they were really good. the only really lame part about the show was lisa rinna and harry hamlin. laaaaame. i had fried chicken for dinner that night and it was damn tasty.

speaking of quotes, i used the best quote ever in a presentation that i gave to my boss. how bout that. he thinks i am crazy. i will never get a promotion. now come on, that quote and then that time at dinner where i drank the wine right from the bottle. dude. i am so screwed. but i am going back to LA 2nd week in january.

i have been off from work for the past 10 days and that is awesome. yes it is new years even and i am updating the blogger. there are two babies upstairs sleeping right now. i can't wait to welcome them to 2007 when we check on them tonight, that is if we manage to stay up past 12.

one of the best parts about taking a total of 11 days off for this vacation is that i am really only using one vacation day which totally rocks. they gave us the 22nd off, and then the 25th and as a bonus the 26th, and then the 29th and then tomorrow. and then for the two days where there were ppl in the office i am using a personal day, so only one vacation day.

good thing because i am going to blow a bunch of vacation in february! we are going to go to canada. and not just like vancouver 3 hrs away, no, like toronto, 6 hours of airplane time with a layover and passports and all of that. yeah, and it only cost $600 for all of us to get or renew passports. what a scam!!! but we will have them and they are funny. we will go to toronto, niagra falls, cleveland and columbus. we will fly and drive all over the place. we will drive right along lake erie in FEBRUARY. we are doing this instead of going to my cousin's wedding in anguilla. yes, we want to drive through the snow belt instead of sit on the beach.

xmas was fun. sirus was hilarious. when we got our xmas tree we brought it in the house and put the lights on while the kids were napping. when srus got up i had never seen him so exicted. i thot he was going to fall over. we went to eric's parent's in yakima for xmas and the kids got to play in the snow which was very fun. we took seamus to see happy feet which was the first movie she has seen since she has been mobile. we took her to see shrek 2, irobot and spiderman 2 when she was ittly bitty. she was totally amazed but the popcorn and the previews but 5 minutes into the actual movie she turned to me and said "ok, i want to go now". she wasn't scared, just done. she managed to make it though the whole thing with only 4 trips to the bathroom, one yelling at an particularly quiet time and sitting in instead of on the booster seat for about 1/2 the movie. not sure when we will go again.

here are some photos:

best quote ever

"it is possible to die from eating, but being professional means not dying." Takeru "The Tsunami" Kobayashi, world record holder for eating hotdogs, among other world records

now that is wisdom. maybe something was lost in translation? regardless its pretty great. i need to see how i can work that one into a presentation or something.

what have i done!

so, off in the mail today went $360 towards to entry fees for the Lake Stevens 70.3 Ironman in July 2007. Oh my goodness. that is 1.2 miles in the warter, 53 miles on the bike and 13.1 miles on the feet. i have a goal of less then 8 hours otherwise i will lose the $500 i am putting in the work betting pool revolving around athletic acheivments. the real one is that you are supposed to do a marathon in less then 6 but we worked the 70.3 in there.

big excitement for the weekend. holiday party on saturday and then gingerbread cookie decorating on sunday. we also have a gingerbread house to decorate which will be fun, too. maybe we will do that next weekend.

what else is going on i wonder?

welcome aboard

the other night i had a dream that i was at a friend's parent's holiday party. my friend wsa not there but kelsey grammar was.
the lame version of return of the jedi is on rifght now. why would they do that? why's he have to go and ruin it.
so the other weekend when i went to that wedding where i got toally hammered, while i was laying in bed the next day totally hung over and not able to move except to maybe transfer over to the bathroom floor, seamus came into the bedroom and said "oh, mommy, i'm so proud of you!" that is so funny. miss guided but funny.













i can't remember the weekend. i can't remember earlier this week. i do know that the kids have been sick and i haven't gotten much sleep and i haven't been exercising but i have been eating lots and lots, like about 3/4 of the 1 lb hershey's bar that eric brought home the other day. it was damn tasty.
big plans for the weekend? i think we are going to go to the tree farm and get an xmas tree. seamus was sooooooo excited when she woke up from her nap and i had put up the stockings and eric had put up the lights outside. i think seamus and i will build a ginger bread house this weekend, too.
dude, we have been watching high def tv lately. and all i can say is that those people on tv, yeah, everyone needs to get high def tv because it will make everyone feel so much better about themselves. the people on tv have jsut as bad skin as i do so that is encouraging.
oooh! james dean cut my hair the other evening. when i left i wasn't totally in love with it as i was last time. but i do have to say that i liked it quite a bit this morning but it is sort of like a fro.
eric is al bummed because while channel surfing he missed princess leia in her metal bikini in high def. a direct eric quote "in real life you wouldn't be able to strangle jabba the hut that way, you would have to be really strong"

big hugs

this is what the kids wear in the snow in seattle cuz they don't have snowpants but they do have rain boots. the neighbor girl came over to play in the snow, too and she was in the same basic thing.














this is my giant hair from the fashion show this weekend. when seamus saw the photos she went: "OOOH! Mommy! You look cuuuute!"













Oh! and that's our giant lcd tv back there, too.
And here is the back:



















sirus learned to vacuum, and he is so good at it he can do it one handed! you can't see him though because he has on camoflauge. sirus also likes to push the doll stroller all around. eric sometimes wonders if he is being the proper role model for our boy. i think he is doing a great job!













seamus and sirus have both ben pretty sick, seamus with a fever al the way to 104.7! they seem to be getting better, but even when they are sick they still give each other big hugs.

inspired to post

jen has inspirec me to post. a lot has happened in the past month or so and i have lots of photos to get caught up on.

Halloween punk rockers at their best! Sirus's makeup didn't wash off for a few days. Should have thought that one through a little better.




























Seamus ran the kids race at the Pumpkin Push. This was after she had already walked 2 of the 2.5 miles of the family fun walk. i like that she has a sponge bob square pants sticker in her hand.













Sirus did the faimly fun walk, too. he was carried or in the stroller for most of it, but he did get out to cross the finish line!














We went to pumkin patch! this was seamus's 3rd trip and sirus's 2nd!














seamus was particularly fond of the green and white pumpkins but i was impressed by how strong she is!





























seamus and sirus were being silly and they hid under sirus's bed!














sirus loves his monster and this little plastic cup!





























seamus picked her outfit out. she really like to wear pants under her dresses, but that is in right now, right?





























babies in a box















i made this dress for seamus! it matches a skirt that i have!





























sirus had some fun with a ballon at his bday party!

i am so project runway

so by now you have probably heard - NPH has come out of the closet. i wasn't quite sure how i felt about it, especially since it is my fault.

I was fine with Lance Bass since it was totally about time and with TR KNight, I was ok,too because that kind of made sense, and george's story line could totally go that way, but Barney is just too funny. poor NPH. after seeing me in LA and finding out that i was happily married, he decided that there was no point and made his announcement. its ok barney, you too will find love someday.

other news, i am going to a wedding this weekend and i am totally stoked. we get to get all dressed out, hang out with our friends and hopefully have some tasty adult beverages. one of the most exciting parts of the wedding is that i will be wearing the dress i wore to homecoming in the 11th grade. that is, the dress from 1990. i didn't think i would ever fit into it again, but my hips and arse have shrunk enough to squeeze in and since my chest is now a negative, with the help of eric and some pliers we were able to get the thing zipped up. i had gotten the dress at a thrift store while visiting my sister at college in pittsburgh. it was long and green and had funny little bows right on the tips of the boobies. it was a homemade dress but i totally loved it, except for the bows. my mom said she would alter it for me, so she took off those bows, cut off about 3 feet from the bottom and then had to open up the arm holes because whoever wore it first must have not had arms or something, i don't know what the deal was there.

last night i put the dress on with the super duper padded wonderbra, ya know, to give myself a siloute and that made it nearly impossible to zip up, and once it was up, i really couldn't breath. so, i got all project runway on its arse and let out some seams. ahhh, now i could breath, sort of. i then got all inspired and tried to open the arms holes a little more in an attempt at opening the chestal region some, but the dress has a weird liner to it and i really messed it up. after three attempts at hand sewing those arm holes very poorly, i pulled out the machine and sewed it up, exactly how it was when my mom did it. anyway, the dress looks awesome, i can breath for the most part and i can sit down, too! pardon me if the dress splits totally open at the wedding - it is not my intention to turn the reception into the bachelor party.

other things - headed to LA tomorrow. who will i see this time?

pop it like its hot?

is that how it goes? snoop dogg was arrested at the bob hope airport in burbank a mere 6 hours after my plane took off from that same location. he had some drugs and guns in his car that was in a loading zone and had a vehicle code violation. i would have loved to have seen snoop dogg. him getting arrested would have been an added bonus. but i was pretty happy with seeing NPH so i can't complain.

tomorrow is the pumpkin push, hooray!

NPH

so, the past few days have been TOTALLY nutty.

the excitement over the week was that i was in a fashion show. yes, starting up the old modeling career again. well, sort of, kind of, maybe, we will see. it was a hand bag show, it was really fun and the lady running it has asked me to come back for another show in april. soooo excited! i hadn't done a show in probably 15 years but it was so much fun and i can't wait to do it again!!

next on the list, i am here in la and last night i was checking my email. one of our sales reps Doug was having an email conversation with one of the people who he had a meeting with. the client's name was doug and i thot his email said "hey doug" it made me laugh, anyway i read the email and saw that the client's name was the same of a guy who lived on the same street as me growing up in ohio. so i sent the sales guy a note asking, he said yes the client said he was from ohio so i said hey ask him this that and the other and there ya go, its the same guy. i find that to be totally crazy insane coincidence i can hardly beleive it.

so dinner toniight i went with a collegue to sushi. and who did we see? but good old NPH himself. Maybe you know him as Barney, maybe you know him as Neil Patrick Harris but most likely you know him as Doogie Houser. He is very small. I am much much taller then he is.

anyway that was the highlight of it all. its 10:18pm and I have SO MUCH work to do. i fly out tomorrow whoopee!

that nose job sure is coming in handy

lots to mention today.

I left off when i had jsut arrived in SF. That trip was a lot of fun. not only was the conference that i went to really good, i got to see allie and meet her baby and her husband. i hadn't seen allie since 1997 i was trying to be all punkrock or something back then with platinum blonde hair and i was a crying mess, so i only got to chat with her for about 5 seconds. prior to that i had only seen her maybe once or twice in college and then it has been since like when we were 16. i was a little concerned that maybe we wouldn't hit it off but we had been exchanging emails regularly since we were both about 6 months pregnant so of course if i was going to be in town i was hoping to get to hang out. we both laughed about how we both sounded much more, how do i put it, mature then when we last hung out, but other then that everything just fell into place. i was so happy to spend time with her again, and i was happy to meet her husband and i totally love her little boy - he is so smiley! so, i took the bart to walnut creek and allie picked me up to go back to her house and to get ready for zach's birthday party! after the party we hung out chatting until it was getting pretty late. allie took me to my hotel which i greatly appreciated because although i would have taken it at night, i really didn't want to risk it.
the next day was the conference and i was amazed. it was huge and i learned so much.
that evening i went shopping to get some sensible shoes since although i wore shoes that i thought were sensible, they weren't since i was walking a ways. i wound up buying some very non-sensible shoes and some underpants for seamus from bloomingdales and have the days of the week and Bloomies on the back.
tuesday morning i returned the non-sensible shoes and just dealt with my original shoes until lunch time when allie and zach met me and we went to china town. i got some chinese jammies for seamus and the cousins and some little black chinese shoes for me. they aren't the most elegant but my feet felt so much better in them.
i do not remember what i did on tuesday night.
wenesday i went to the conference for day 3, tried to hook up with xtie's friend who works in the city who i had lunch with the last time i was in SF back in 1999 but it didn't happen so i went to the airport to see if i could catch an earlier flight, which i did. oh, i won a blackberry in a drawing. do you want to buy it from me? i will give you a good deal on it.
so now i am home but very busy and the insomnia is back but it is different. i just stay up late now instead of going to bed and trying to fall asleep. so the problem is now if i wake up in the morning, i stay awake. this has resulted in me showing up at work at 6 and 630am several times this week.
i have taken up a new challenge of running at least 20 minutes a day. that has been working out pretty good. i head out to the tread mill because i am totally in love the thing after the kids go to bed. eric put the tv out there and got some rabbit ears so now i can watch something other then that desire show in a snowstorm.
so something big is happening this weekend. i will write about it after it happens!

bring it on

when i was in LA last week we had to say what our favorite movie was. the first one that popped into my head was starship troupers. while this is indeed one of my favorite movies, i totally forgot about that all time classic Bring it On. I love it. its one right now here in my hotel in SF and i am totally psyched. and it is rigth at the point in the movie where they are going to learn about spirit fingers. so psyched!!

this week has been a long week. i came home from la on friday. needless to say i don't remember friday very much.

saturday eric went and did something and i set up appointments to get the kids photos taken and for them to get hair cuts. i was a little concerned about taking them to the mall for photos by myself but it turned out to be a lot of fun. seamus was totally awesome. she was really good and even posed for her photos. sirus was good, too just he was more into wanting to do other things. it was so funny though because seamus and sirus were rolling around all over the place. i wish the lady would have just taken some photos of it!

hair cuts were fun, too. both of them were sooo good! sirus got his cute really short again and seamus had quite a bit taken off, too. so cute, they looked like grown up kids. they both got baloons and they loooove balloons.

after not really sleeping at all on saturday night i got up at 430 adn headed to the airport. the flight was uneventful. i got on the sky train to go to bart but i forgot what color train i was on sao when the speaker said to transfer to the red train at this stop, i got off. yeah, so i was on the red train. so i had to wait for the next one. bart was good. much less clean then i remember it but still it was a pretty good deal. i got off the bart and couldn't find the hotel that was really only about 2 blocks from the bart station... after about a 1/2 hour of dragging my suitcase around i asked the guy at the 4 seasons and he just laughed and gave me some directions.

it was still pretty early but they let me check in anyway. i went up to my room only to find a suitcase and some purple and yellow boxer shorts in the room. it was still occupied so i went back down and got a new room.

then i went shopping. shopping in sf is really good.

more later.

nose job, death by phonics bus and birthday madness

so, i went to the dermatologist to get a sin check up. since i have had so many things removed over the years and since that last one cam back atypical, it was a good idea. yeah, totally great until the doctor lady loked down the back of my underpants and used her thumbs to spread my ass cheeks ever so slightly, because i might have skin cancer in my butt crack, ya know. oh my gawd.
so, after determining that every thing looked fine, we discussed the growth on my nose. she said she would go either way on it but since i was sensitive to it she urged me to get rid of it. she shot up my nose with the pain killer and then sliced the little fawker right off. she then put a band aide on the end of my nose. i looked really cool. for the past week i have had a goopy red spot on the end of my nose while in public and a bandaide on it while at home. seamus likes to tell me i have a square on my nose.

the other night i woke up at 330 in the morning to a concerning sound. it sounded like crackling and i became very concerned. i woke eric up and told him that i tot it might be the tubing for the radiant heating. he poked around, went out to the garage and got some tools and started taking out one of our lights. i was getting more and more freaked out, and gradually putting on more and more clothes so i could grab the kids and make a quick get away if necessary. eric nticed that every time he leaned down to get a new tool the sound go louder. finally he pulled out the basket of toys from under the stairs and found the phonics bus. it was turned on and crackling like crazy. good fun. the phonics bus is very popular in our family. when seamus first got it she would go out of her way to only push the yellow letters. sirus likes to make it roll around. eric made the funny joke that when you make the drums play it actually sounds like its being shot at by machine guns, so we determined that it is an inner city phonics bus. when the bus says fox it sounds much more like some other word that starts with the letter f.

sirus turned 1 this week. we had a party for him on saturday and he had cake and ice cream for the first time. he just started walking last week, too, so he was able toshow off his new skills at his party. i felt terrible on his real birthday because i had to work late and only got to spend a little time with him. he is so adorable.

wednesday evening i went to LA for work. the flight got in at 9ish and by 945 ish i found the gym and was running on the tread mill. the treadmills had built in tvs but it wasn't until 35 minutes had passed that i determined that you could change the channel. i wached 35 minutes of ESPN and 5 minutes of seinfeld.
thursday was all day full of meetings at the office. they were good meetings and despite having been totally crazy insane and grumpy the past few weeks, everything turned out pretty well. i like to go to la every once in a while to see the people there. we went out for dinner and i had way too many margaritas and hopefully i didn't make too much of an ass of myself infront of my new boss but i was just being myself and it is very healthy to laugh.
finally at 2 i was in bed. flew home this morning, went to the office and then got to come home to see the babies. its only been a few days but seamus is a totally different little girl. she talks in full sentences like "that little boy is reading a book and wearing striped PJs." no joke, that was a direct quote. she is only 2.5 people.

so now i will hopefully sleep a lot tonight, relax tomorow then get up at 430 on sunday to catch the 7am flight to SF. i am excited about the SF trip because i will see allie for the first time in 3823778152 years. i will also get to meet her bebe and her husband which is very exciting. i will be at a conference monday, tuesday and wednesday. since i don't know anyone else going i imagine i will be heading to the hotel and getting some quality sleep those nights instead of doing an LA repeat.

i don't know why

she makes this face:
when she is fuly capable of making this face:

i made her the dress that she is wearing!

eric took this photo. one day she decided she wanted to wear tights. these are her birthday tights she wore when she turned one. the other day i got her up from her nap and she had taken some other tights out of the top drawer of her 6 drawer dresser and put them on all by herself. i was pretty amazed. yes, the dresser is anchored to the wall, thank goodness.

this is what happens in the house every day, at least once to each parent:





no wonder we are so tired.

i had a good surgery

i got a note in the mail today from my doctor saying that its a good thing i had surgery because the moley moley mole had atypical cells in it. ok, so i am imaginging that atypical cells are ok to have since i got a postcard and not a phone call. i imagine the doctor might tell me more about it when i get my stitches out?

seamus is at camp grandma tonight. we went and dropped her off to have a slumber party and sirus and i will go pick her up tomorrow after dinner. this evening i got to have some quality time with sirus and he just laughed and laughed. i think he now says "whats that?" when he points at stuff and he also says mama, dada, bottle, ball, duck and he can do the sign for more. all of these are of course up for debate but i am pretty sure that i am seeing and hearing what i think i am.

eric told me a funny story how he and the kids were in the car the other day and seamus was teaching sirus to talk. she would make the t sound over and over and then sirus would repeat it. when he repeated it correctly seamus would say "thats right sirus, good job" she is so funny.

i went for a trail run with heather today. 6 miles about. it kicked both of our arses. i was kind of hung over from having gone out the night before and having had 3 tasty margaritas from the cactus. those drinks were so damn tasty. i love 'em.

eric pointed out to me that my shirt with the jack-a-lope doesn't really have a jack-a-lope on it at all. instead it is just a giant bunny with a cow boy on it. yes, i do pride myself on my attention to detail skills. i still like it though, it would have been better if it was a jack-a-lope. maybe i will make a shirt like that and it will be how eric and i make out millions. maybe instead we will make a shirt with the pawpi-lope on it instead.

even more hate

so, i really hate that i got sucked into the last few episodes of Rock Star Super Nova. OH MY GAWD. But i was sucked in and i watched it and was more the sligtly fascintated by it. i also hate that tommy lee is so damn hot. what is up with that? i was concered every time he stood up that his pants were going to fall off because they were so low but i guess he has things in those pants to help keep them up. i did see his wedding video, afterall.

i think that america's next top model starts next week. i can't wait!

i was going to go to the foot doctor today but my orthotics issue seems to have corrected itself. eric got me some yankz shoe laces and ever since i have started to use them my feet go into my shoes and line up perfectly with my orthotics. problem solved. awesome.

the day after my surgery i went for a little run around the neighborhood. i was feeling pretty good about that, since i had just had surgery and all. when i was being operated on i asked the doctor about all the twitching i was having after i gave blood last time. she says it was most likely due to an electrolyte issue and maybe some dehydration tossed in there, too. that would makes sense since i am no longer twitching.

big plans for the weekend? i can't remember if i have any or not! well, that is boring.

surgeried on today

today i went to the doctors. i thought i was just going but then my doctor said that actually i was having surgery. wow, that is pretty nutty. so i had my surgery and am now back home recovering. actually, my doctor is just pretty funny. i had a mole removed but since it was being all cut out and i got two stitches she said that it is technically surgery and that i should milk it for all it is worth. next week i need to milk the fact that i will have to go get my stiches out.

we did the last triathlon of our triathlon season yesterday. i did not want to go. i was so exhausted and i pretty much rolled out of bed and into the water. it turned out to be fun and i did pretty well. at least i felt pretty good, placing is another story. i came in 25th in my age group out of not too many more then that. mission accmolished though, i felt good when it was done. eric came in 11th overall and 4th in his age group. he had the fastest bike time overall, came in 7th in the run but then managed a 120th in the swim. out of 316 men, that is still pretty good.

the past few nights i have actually fallen asleep quite easily. we have The Stick and i have been using it right before bed. i still have all the ice packs in the bed, too, but i haven't taken and aleve or anything and its been pretty good. maybe i have a circulation issue?

i had an accident over the weekend where the computer wound up broken. so i went and bought us a new one. its nice. its not too high tech and will basically do just what we need it to. it was a pain in the arse trying to get it hooked up to the information super highway but eric did the job and got it taken care of.

i bought a shirt with a jack-a-lope on it and i got some chuck taylors for sirus. i also got the kids some running pants, ya know, to go running. seamus has had her's on ever since i brought them home. she is so funny. when she saw my new gaping wound, well there are stitches so its not gaping and there is a bandaid so really, when seamus saw my bandaide she got very concerned, wrinkled her brow and said - oh you have an owie. she is very funny.

later this week i go to the foot doctor for some help with my orthotics and then next week maybe i will have more surgery. i am going to a dermatologist to discuss my options surrounding the thing growing off the end of my nose. eric says my mustache is not really there and is instead a shadow caused by the growth. the doctor will let us know if he is indeed right or not. if he is not and i really do have that crazy hairless mustchew, the doctor should be able to help. while i am sure her job can be totally grosser then gross at times, her schedule is to die for, she works mondays, tuesdays and thursdays but only every other week. what is that?

american idol

when i audition for american idol some day i will sing ceclia by simone and grafunkel for my audition.

i just ate a mystery cheese stick thing that does not require refridgeration. it was packaged next to a peperoni flavored beef stick. it was damn tasty.

why? i will tell you why.

i didn't buy the dress because it was like $345 and that was too much at the time but maybe i should have gotten it - more on that later.

so wednesday night racing was fun. weird but fun. i felt like i was in highschool again. it was strange but i got to hang out with eric and his friends. on the way there i wondered out loud to eric if his friend loren would notice and comment on my new hair. last time i had my hair done we went to a party and loren commented that it looked nice. that was in december i think and that was also the last time i saw loren. sure enough he commented again and eric and i had a little laugh about it. it made me happy though.

thursday we took seamus to gymnastics. her coach is Sheila and she is a little freaky but seems pretty nice. the first lesson we learned is to not take seamus into the building until right before her class starts. she saw all of the amazing things to do and went crazy. everyone thought she was scared and didn't want to do it but no, it was that she wanted to start running around and it wasn't time yet. it was only seamus and a little boy in her particular class although there were a bunch of other kids there. it will be interesting to see what happens. seamus needs to learn how to wait and take her turn. that is one thing she is not very good at.

friday morning we headed out to mt hood for chad and charity's wedding. first we had to go to yakima to drop the kids off at eric's parents. 5 minutes after we left the house eric mentioned that maybe we should have brought the wet suits to go for a mtn lake swim but we decided against turning around. an hour later i realized that we did not bring eric's suit. we would have to stop in yakima and get him something to wear. hours later we got to eric's parent's and dropped off the kids and then went shopping. we found him some snazzy pin stripe pants and a salmon colored shirt. he didnt like the shirt but too bad. we also got him a new belt.

finally, 7 hours after we left the house we got to the timberline lodge. it was so awesome although our room smelled a bit like pee. we changed our clothes and headed off for a run. we decided to run to the silcox hut which was a mile away and at 7000 ft. we started at 6000 ft. at about 6050 ft we stopped running and walked the rest of the way. it was very beautiful there. afterwards we went swimming and realized that doing anything at altitude is rediculously difficult. we met up with the laylands only to find out that they forgot their clothes, too, which is funny to me. we all had dinner and some beers and then met up with the drunken bride and groom to be. i slept horribly.

in the morning we went and had some tasty breakfast and headed out for a hike. this time we chose a 5 miler with no mention of elevation although there was quite a bit on the way back. then we went for a swim and then had some lunch and then relaxed until it was time for the wedding. the ceremony was beautiful, right in front of the huge mountain. lots of girls there had bra straps and other under garments were making appearances and the lady that sat infront of us had a spider in her hair.

we had some tasty wine at cocktail hour and then the reception started. dinner was awesome and the wine was flowing. eric finally managed to get us up dancing. the best part of the evening was when eric went up to the dj to make a request and when he finally go around to playing it announced that the request was made by the guy in the salmon colored shirt. he is my favorite dj.

more later.

more hate, and some love, too

i hate that i kind of like snoop dog. maybe i like to see him in movies but not really his music. maybe that is it. i definitly like to seem him in starsky and hutch in just hi boxer shorts because he is the tiniest man in the world.

i hate that last week i cried at work. twice. oh my god, it was terrible. the worst and to make it even worse i cried on the phone to my boss. oh my god, talk about humiliating. thank god that i am now on vacation. for a week plus the extra day for labor day. ugh, what a mess. i am so embarrassed and its just so lame.

i got my hair done. every 9 months to a year i get around to getting my hair done. i had it done back in december so i was due. i had the faboulous duo of richard and james dean work on my color and cut. richard is my new best friend. we are both totally grossed out by richie sambora, denise richards and kid rock. we both love america's next top model. the best part about richard is that i told him i wanted a good hair make over and that they could do whatever they wanted just as long as it didn't make my face look fat. after he washed the color stuff out and was putting my hair in the turban he said to me very sincerely that he thinks its funny that i woul be so concerned about having a fat face because my face was the futhest thing from being fat. he is my new best friend. james dean was awesome as well i think he did the whole cut using a straight blade. i wasn't really expecting it to be so short but its not too bad. james dean is a little asian man who works out and has a little bit of facial hair. he doesn't talk much and when he did i could barely hear him. i think he is pretty shy because the girls next to us were trying to get all chatty with him and he seemed to be getting embarrassed the whole time. while i am not sure that he is a new best friend, i do think he is my new hair cutter.

seamus is getting so tall. her jeans that she got at the beginning of the summer that were falling off of her are now on the verge of being too short. we took her to the zoo on monday. she almost didn't get to go because she hit me. she didn't just hit me, she was wailing on me. so not cool. but we eventually got her to apologize so she got to go. sirus slept. but seamus saw a giraffe that was "really, really, really, really tall." a lot of the animals were out and about so it was a fun visit for us all.

later in the day we filled up the pool and seamus and sirus played for hours it seemed. a friend from work gave us an awesome treadmill but we have no where to put it, so its on the patio under the deck. this actually works pretty well because i was able to run on it but also be in pretty much arms reach of the kids while they played. it made the time go by quick. we have a tarp for the treadmill for when it rains but really we haven't had much rain yet. it will likely have to make its way into the garage.

we went and saw a bunch of people's babies recently. we saw sunna last friday, oliver on sunday and i saw zander yesterday. man, there are a lot of babies going on.

tonight is the last wednesday night mtn bike race of the season until the cyclocross wedneday nights start up. my mom is coming to watch the kids and i am going to head out with eric for some social interaction and adult beverages. tomorrow is seamus's first gymnastics class! i hope she has fun.

we are headed to mt hood this weekend for chad and charity's wedding. we are leaving the kids at grandma and grandpa's and it will be two nights away! oh my goodness. yesterday after getting my hair done i stopped in at betsy johnson. i hate that place but managed to exercise some self restraint i found an awesome dress that i was totally digging but managed to not buy it. it was pretty rocking though.maybe te dress wasn't as flattering as i thought? maybe it was the platform stilettos they let me try on with it that made me look extra tall? maybe it was the lighting that made my shoulders and collar bone be acentuated or maybe it was that awesome mirror there that makes you look totally awesome in anything you put on at that damn store.

instead i imagine i will wear my standard wedding attire. its betsey johnson, too, but i have managed to wear it to adam's wedding, nathan's wedding, derek's wedding and now i will wear it to chad and charity's too. i think actually that i wear betsey johnson to everyone's wedding - luan's, nate and andrea, mark d's. those three were at least different dresses, all that have made appearances at various other events. i even almost wore a betsey johnson dress to my own wedding reception except that i don't know if bright red would have been totally appropriate?

ok thatis all for now. eric and seamu sare outside. eric is working on his cross bike and seamus is playing with a cheerios's race car. sirus is napping. ok, later.

is she ready?

i think she might be. seamus starts gymnastics next week. after today's display of agility, i think she is ready.

yes, that is the wall that she has her feet on. she kept telling us that she was exercising.


and if you were wondering, this is what "playing cushions" looks like:

hate

there are a few things i hate. one being that i loved watching hell's kitchen and i hate that the season is now over. that show was pretty much dumb but i watched it religiously every week.

so it turns out i was the last official finisher. we know there were more that either dropped out or just came in after me because i had passed those people that never passed me again and the girl with the broken elbow was still waiting for her friend to finish when we left. like i said, i am ok with coming in last. there was a woman there who finished 50th overall, 8th among women, at 2:16 who was the overall winner of the women at the Seafair tri. she was only 6:31 per minute faster then me. ha!

we had the nicest evening last night. i was so tired when i got home and still really sore. but we loaded up the kids and walked down to the u village for dinner. seamus ran the whole way down and was really good at dinner. the food was awesome the atmosphere was great, we had an awesome waiter who asked seamus directly if she wanted grated parmesian on her penne, and seamus was really well behaved. after we went to the play area and she and sirus went nuts just running around and climbing up and sliding down and having a great time. then we walked home. it was just so relaxing.

i have made some sleeping changes that seem to be helping. my left foot hurts when i go to sleep i will start to doze off and then they start twitching and it wakes me up and then they start aching and then my legs and then its just terrible and it seems to be in my wrists a lot lately too. the left foot has been an issue ever since highschool. it doesn't happen when i take naps during the day, only at night time. so i usually get up and take something. lately though, nothing seems to help and it was getting really bad. so, my new thing is icepacks in the bed. I just lay them in the bed and rest my foot and leg on them while i doze off and it seems to be working quite well. the past two nights i have gotten some pretty good sleep and i haven't had to take any pain medicine at all. hooray!hopfully it will last. i still seem to be having this weird kind of upper body twitch that i don't seem to understand. i gave blood a few weeks back and it has been happening ever since then. i have no clue.

17 free sandwiches

right now we are 5 of 7 towards our 17th free sandwich. do you know how many sandwiches that is? 117 that we have paid for plus 16 free ones. that is a lot of sandwiches!

looks like i can post photos again

the progressions of sirus at the JC Penny photo studio

there would have been some at 2 weeks but they LOST them

here he is at 1 month




here he is at 2 months




i have some at 3 months but i can't find them and i totally missed 6 months

here he is at 9 months!





and now the little guy is almost 10.5 months old!

13 miler

all week i have been feeling not quite right i'm not pregnant, it turns out, so that is good. but it leaves mewondering why i have been feelign the way i have. all week i debated about the 13 mile trail run on saturday. i decided to do it but debated up until the time they sent us off whether it was really a good idea. here is how the race went.

i start out the race thinking ideally i would like to come in at 2:30 but realistically i think 3:00 would be more on target.

Pre-race meeting: they tell us there is 2700 ft of vertical, they tell us there is a water station at 3 and 9 miles. they say at mile 10 there is 600 ft of vertical in that mile so to make sure to be ready for it but then after it the rest is flat or downhill.
they send us off.
15 minutes into the race - there is a hill, the same one from the 5 miler i had done a while back
20 minutes in: i am thinking this was a really bad idea
35 minutes in: i hit the 3 mile water station. eric, the kids and the photographer are here. eric took some pictures.
42 minutes in: i stop to pee on the side of the trail
1:07 in: i am starting to feel pretty good and think this is actually going to be ok. i catch a girl who asks me the time and i tell her i think we are probably a little over 5 miles in. she doesn't believe me but i think that is where we are. about this same time i set my new goal to hit the 9 mile mark at 2:00
1:48 in: i am thinking i might not get to 9 miles by 2:00 since the trail does not look to be heading in any direction where there might be a water station. about this time, i think, ok, next year, i will come better trained, less vertigoed and i will kick some ass.
2:20 in: i start heading up hill. seriously up hill, like so up hill that its straight up switch backs and they are kicking my ass. i think - is this the hill that was supposed to be at mile 10? did they close down the water station because i was taking so long? i was totally ok with that idea i keep going straight up. it never ends. i have to stop a few times, i almost start to cry because it just keeps going and going. i don't cry because if i did two things would happen: i would wind up totally bawling and then i would never get out and the other is that i would then be "they cryer", ya know, the person who isn't hurt but is crying anyway. at this point i decide to screw coming back next year and instead i will drop out at the 9 mile water station.
2:40 i get to the water station and am like "what the fawk!" 40 minutes past my revised goal. ugh. i hang out, have a pretzel, joke with the lady there, some guy tells me that that hill was the big hill and there aren't any more, the lady assures me there isn't anything tramatic in the last4 miles. i grab some more water, some more pretzels and head out. i tell them it will be another hour until they see me at the finish.
2:54 they are big fat liers!!! there is that 600 ft climb. i go way slow, slowere then slow, slower then the slowest of all slow. then i get to the top.
here is when i lost track of time pretty much. i take up a new tactic where i will run for 5 minutes and then walk for 5. it turns into run for like 2 and walk for like 15. i get to some markings on the trail where there are arrows and ribbons pointing in both directions and i just stood there for the longest time tryingt o figure out what to do. i pick my route and run into some horses who say i am almost done. i hit one last water station and they say its .6 miles to the finish. i can run .6 miles! ok, apparantly i couldn't, but i did run most of it.
3:40 i finish. there was no feeling of releif, there was no feeling of great accomplishment. i just wanted to sit down. seamus and i walked to the car. she wanted to watch the water run down the parking lot. and i just couldn't stand up any more so i sat on the ground and she wound up sitting with me.
the two people who came in right before me was a man who was doing the race in tevas and a woman who broke her elbow and cracked her hip mtn biking three weeks earlier. i as not last, i don't think, but i very well could have been the last finisher. i had passed some people at the three mile water station that didn't pass me later but we did not stick around to see if they ever finished.
today i feel sore but suprisingly ok. i tend to kick myself in the left ankle when i am tired so i have a bruise there and i have a really big blister UNDER a callous on that same foot. i have a few other blisters as well, but luckily i didn't discover them until after the race. they did their job and did not pop.
so, i might not do this event next year, but i do think i might try the seattle 1/2 marathon in november. the danskin triatlon is next weekend, the issaquah triathlon is the weekend after that and then the escape from the rock, mercer island is september 10. then i can rest and decide about the 1/2.

oh my gawd

i think i have the vertigo again. this is so not good. last night around 930 the room just started spinning. round and round it went. and round and round it is still going. its not as bad right now that i am at my desk and not moving at all, but once i do anything it makes me want to puke.

as i was leaving to come to work eric sent me off with these parting words: maybe you are pregnant again.

this scares me because i got the vertigo very early in both of my previous pregnancies. i think i am going to cry and then throw up.

the drama, oh the drama

since there isn't anything on tv right now except for the number one comedy, 2 and 1/2 men, oh my gawd, how can that be the #1 comedy? how could charlie sheen be nomintated for an emmy? what is going on? i decided to fill ya'll in on the drama.

i bought a sewing machine and have been sewing a bunch i made seamus a pair of pants and two dresses. i had ordered the fabric a long long time ago and even cut out the patterns but never got around to it. so now they are done. just the one dress needs some buttons.

eric went on a mtn bike ride with his friends yesterday. he left the house at 730am. he got home at 930pm. the ride was 3 hours long. what was the other 11 hours for?

while eric was out seamus and the neighbor girl were playing in the backyard. i was back there watching them play and taking photos and all was great. until the neighbor girl fell off the slide and hit her head on the cement retaining wall. blood was squirting everywhere. luckily her dad was right there. she stopped crying as soon as they went home and she wanted to come back and play with seamus but everyone stayed indoors the rest of the day. she turned out to be ok but man, i am so overly protetive and paranoid about that stuff and then boom, i was sitting there watching as it happened. it makes me feel terrible. i am glad she is ok. she wa over here playing in the yard again today, so that is good at least.

my car is in the shop. yeah, we all know that. its been like 20 days now. i called vw and told them i was lemon lawing them. they are looking into it. their customer care people are so awesome. and the people at the dealership where i bought the car have been really great, too. except when at first they weren't going to give me a loaner car. but they have been really helpful so its been good. now i am faced with if they buy the car back from me, what kind of car do i want? i could do it all over again. that vw eos looks pretty fun but that's not around until september i think. i do like the passat, though. we will see. all i know is that i don't really trust getting it back on day 29.

i signed seamus up for some gymnastics classes. it will be interesting. its for 2 1/2 - 3yr olds and does not involve parental participation. eric will be taking her on thursday mornings. i will go to her first one though. i hope she has fun. she is pretty advanced in all the physical stuff already so it might not be challenging for her that way but she will have to take turns and there will be other kids there, too.

eric, the kids and i went on an aproximate 9 mile run on saturday. it was actually not that bad. until saturday and sunday night when we have both had terrible insomnia.

for dinner tonight seamus had a very spicey bratwurst. it was really spicey but she just ate it no problem. she is a funny one.

we took the kids to a baby and kids modeling and talent agency and they want to sign up sirus. seamus's screaming and running around when they tried to see how tall she was didn't really impress them, but sirus layed the charm on pretty thick as he tends to do. we will have to see what happens next, if anything.

everyone is having babies. starla had hers this weekend, and david and stephanie had theirs, too. erik's is on its way, craig and jean had theirs just a few weeks ago and luan's and also mikki's will be coming here pretty soon, too. so that is 6 babies. that doesn't include kathleens, jamie's, bradie's or brandy's all from earlier this year, or rena's a bit later. add onto that my sister's friends john and rajesh and the population just doubled.

ok, that is all.

bye bye

so this morning, after waking up all cranky and sick with what seems to be a fever and a running, snotty nose, sirus said what we are pretty sure were his first words! eric was holding him and i gave them kisses and i waved and said bye bye and sirus semi-waved back and said bye bye, too!! eric an di looked at him and that each other and were both like - hey - did we just hear that!

this moring sirus and i played donuts. its a new game that i think he made up this morning. i sit on the floor and he brings me the colored plastic donuts that stack on the thing, ya know the toy i am talking about? so he gives me a donut and then he would take it away. turn to the side and then turn back and give it back to me. this was apparently a lot of fun.

seamus plays cushions. that is a game where she takes all if the cushions off of the couch and does whatever with them. last night she told me she didn't want to play cushions.

on sunday she told me she loved me, but i didn't hear it. i was busy talking to my mom and she said somethign and hugged me and then turned to my mom and said the same thing to her and hugged her. my mom heard it and said she was saying that she loved us. i wish i could hear it.

so, the word of digital cameras is great. you can take 100807 photos and really the only thing you pay for is the initial investment of your camera. i got an email from a friend who stored their family photos on their computer and their computer recently died. they lost all of the ir photos from the past two years, including all of the ones of their son's birth and everything since then. eric kind of makes fun of me for making 237874589273 copies of our photos and stashing those copies in various locations like my office and work and the safety deposit box, but once those photos are gone, they will never come back.

my car is still in the shop.