the final countdown!!

today is october 31.  halloween.  tomorrow is november 1.  tomorrow is also my big follow up appointment with the endocrinologist and surgeon.  this is the 6 monther, even tho it hasn't quite been 6 months.
they will be checking to see if my pituitary gland is failing yet.  and i don't know what else.  then i will talk to the surgeon and see about fixing my head.  if i do that, i wonder how long i'll be out of commission for.  to the benefits (like wearing hats and sleeping on my right side, oh and not having a giant dent in the side of my forehead) out weigh the risks (infection, it hurting more / looking worse than it does now, staples and stitches in my head, no exercise)?  we'll have to see.  maybe he was kidding when he mentioned that at my 8 week appointment.  he was funny about it "oh that looks terrible, i can fix that for you, you shouldn't have to have it look like that, oh my, that does look terrible".
oooh!  i hear some trick or treaters!!!  2 kids.  let's see how many we get this year! eric did some crazy decorating outside - a scary hanging man with a pulsing spot light, a big black spider web with a giant green spider, purple lights, flashing skulls, two giant pumpkins carved with the kids's designs.  OH we are the worst parents!  we have a pumpkin patch not even 2 miles from the house, i pass it every time i go to work, and you know what?  we did not go to the pumpkin patch this year.  ugh.  that is why the kids wound up with giant pumpkins - to make up for our lame parenting.  bad parents!  but i did make their costumes, sirus is a blue guy and seamus is a shadow!
back to pre-trick or treaters.  so yeah, almost 6 month visit, its crazy it has been that long.  its crazy that any of it had ever happened in the first place.  all of it, un-real.  i am so lucky to be alive and well and living life and being able to eat the three giant cookies i had at the work halloween party, and to be drinking this halloween beer, right now!
but OHH!  the count down, yeah, so the 20 year high school reunion is coming up!  over thanks giving weekend.  yikes!  eric and I are heading back for it.  omg, bad parents AGAIN!!  we will not be spending thanksgiving with the kids.  bad parents, BAD!!!  instead they are going to Las Vegas with grandma to visit uncle rick.  at least they will be with family having fun, but bad parents!!!  instead we are leaving thanks giving day to fly to OHIO.  omg, can you say OHIO.  we have not been back there since seamus was 9 months old, that was in 2004!!  that is 8 years ago!  it has been 8 years!  that is a long freaking time.  omg, anxiety attack thinking about it right now.  and what is even better is that i'll be going to OHIO again in december!!  OMG!  twice!!!  in a matter of like 30 days or so.  what? 
so the reunion, our HS always has them over thanksgiving weekend.  always have.  i think, or at least i used to think that was a great idea.  when my mom still lived there.  and it would make sense to travel all the way accross the country to OHIO to visit her with the family for a holiday and the reunion.  but she moved out this way like in 2005 i think.  so now only eric and i are going back for this reunion.  that is going to be at a BAR.  so this is totally fine.  not a ton of fancy places back there, and the idea of it being a bar is great because a) it will be super casual b) it will be cheap c) maybe other peeps who did not graduate with us who might be in town can stop in, etc.  the bad part about it being in a BAR 1) can't get dressed up.  since the work has a during the day, after lunch work holiday party, i have no opportunity to get super fancy dressed up so i was looking forward to it 2) last time we went to this BAR in 2004, eric ordered a Genesee thinking it was a Guiness.  they are not even close.
i hear kids at the door!!  oh no, they are going to ring the doorbell and it will start with the "its a small world" song.  so, 4 kids this time.  we are giving out the full sized bars and one of them had the nerve to ask - how many can we have?  what?  WHAT???  you can have NONE.
3) um, maybe those are the only two cons to having it at the bar. 
anyway, i am pretty excited about seeing everyone except the fact that i am 400 pounds.  at least my skin looks descent these days.  oh and i have some bald spots, oh and some crazy ass hair and some wow, super bushy eyebrows.  ok, so i will get the eyebrows taken care of, and i am getting a haircut next week.  i cut it twice myself but have been holding back, its turning into a mullet since i can't get the back along the bottom.  that needs professional help, so i have been lettign the whole thing grow out.  i'll just have to make due with the bald spots (really the hair covers it pretty well) and then after tonight and this beer and probably some halloween candy, it will be ON.  i have finally gotten some consistency back with my training, so making progress there.  it might all work out ok. gonna have to keep on top of it though.
did i mention that i got an add in my yahoo mail that had a picture of my endocrinologist on it?
oh and this morning at the gym i noticed that one of the trainers who has a total buzz cut has a scar on his head very similar to mine.  i totally wanted to ask him about it. 
that is all.