ready

dude, if it weren't for the fact that the window is only 4 inches off the ground, i would totally jump out of it!! it took every iota of will power i had today to not visit the candy dish at work a 2nd time. now i am anxiously waiting for the kids to get themselves busy something so i can snag one of the last donuts.
the other night, the kids were all giving pointers as to what eric should do. i said i knew of something he should do but that i couldn't say it out loud. reason being is that i thot he should go to the store and get some stuff to make brownies and i didn't think the kids needed brownies. just me. but seamus wanted to guess what it was, so she asked if i wanted him to do an underwear fashion show. it was not, instead eric went on to display how either loves me or hates me by going to the store and getting the stuff to make the brownies, plus the extra chocolate chips and walnuts to load into them. they were geeeewwwddd. but those brownies are long gone, and now instead of that donut i am eyeing, which very well might not even be in the box sitting on the counter, i might instead go for a handful or two of chocolate chips and walnuts, or better yet, get a giant spoonful of peanut butter and toss chocolate chips on top of that.

OMG what is wrong with me???

and even more, i am facing quite the dilemma right now. eclipse just showed up from netflix. i want to watch it. BUT tonight is the first show of 2 and 1/2 men with ashton kutcher. i hate that show. but gawwdamitall, sometimes erci flips around and lands on the reruns and every single time i laugh at least once and it pisses me off!! but anyway, i kinda want to see what happens.

i ran on sunday! hooray! i am running tomorrow too! still walk 2 run 1. easy easy. lookin forward to it!!

appendicitis

so i am having one. right now. i must be! what else could it be? no wonder i have been feeling weird lately. whew, glad to have that figured out. i had an appendicitis last week soemtime, too. seems like i just keep getting them.
ugh.
so excited that i have been cleared to start running on saturday! 1 mile!! 2 min walk / 1 min run for that 1 mile. IF i feel ok, i can continue on for another mile.
omagosh - i am SO stuck in Twilight. i totally love it, i'm most of the way through the 3rd book, then i'll see the movie and i am hoping to get far enough along in Breaking Dawn by the time that movie comes out so i can see it in the theater. i have been cheating by looking at photos and watching the previews and trailers and stuff. SO excited about it. its rediculous. I'M rediculous.
i have been having interesting conversations with people about the movies. eric says he is team jacob. mat says so is he. i can't decide! i know its totally superficial and lame of me, but i really don't like that Edward has a big butt and it bothers me that jacob is supposed to be like 6'7" and he is only a little taller than Bella. Eric says the reason that none of the vampire's powers like being able to read her mind, or see her memories work is because there is nothing in there for them to see. she is a rock. totally empty. i want to know why we can call jacob, Jake but we can't call Edward, Ed. janet wants to know why edward doesn't turn into a bat. i asked eric this question. he said its because that is silly, but janet insists that it makes more sense for edward to turn into a bat then it does for him to be in love with bella. but bella smells delicious. i once worked with a girl names delicia, and my bf at the time called her delicious. she wore blue stirrup pants that were too small. she was nice but she was not delicious.
i want to know what would have happened if bella hadn't have gone to forks in the first place. i also want to know, other than his big butt/pear shape, why isn't edward a little more muscularly defined? she goes on and one about he is hard as stone but yet he looks kinda squishy. and why doesn't her mother love her and why can't her dad fix himself dinner? and was it career limiting that i told one of the sales people at work that the instant he walked into the office i was just like - OMG, its Edward! not because he reminds me of robert pattinson or whoever, but because he is sorta more like what i expected edward to be.
eric went to costco today. he called me to ask if there was anything i wanted him to get. i said NO GRANOLA! so i came home from work and there was granola. he said the woman in line in front of him had nothing but 6 boxes of the granola in her cart. well, DUH, its THAT good. i do wonder if my appendicitises are because of all the granola and blueberries i have been eating.

the kids and i are watching old school smurf cartoons.

AND eric is going to be racing against lance armstrong at xterra nationals. since its a mass start he will be right up there with him. THAT is kind of bad ass.

this is me pist off

see! pist! super pist! its morning! my pancakes are almost gone! i have to go to work! i have been sitting on my ass far too long! the 72 pounds of "muscle" i gained in the past year have turned into fat along with the extra 47 pounds i have gained while i am recovering. wow, no wonder my back hurts!!! uuuggghhh!!
but no really, this was the first test photo we took using the camera after it made its appearance in the canadian toilet. the camera is actually focusing now, too! the camera is actually quite old, i want to say like 4-5years maybe? we got it at walmart in vernal utah. gah! so many trips to walmart!! dude, when we were in portland i wasn't wearing my wedding rings. i had actually stopped wearing them quite often because its bad to swim in them, and whatever else, and i totally stopped racing in them. but i was feeling all lovey dovey about eric while we were on our way to that portland race. i can't remember why we stopped at walmart, but i said - i want a wedding ring. so right then and there, we went to the walmart jewelry counter and i got one! a nice, white gold band that i totally love. i like my fancy rings too, but this one is good, too. so lightweight, its like wearing nothing at all.
in las vegas, i had forgotten my ear plugs. so we went to the walmart there and i got some. US Divers, professional series or something like that. i wound up not wearing ear plugs at that race. i would prefer to find a k-mart but they aren't as pleantiful.
i'm getting a new wetsuit - hooray!!
i've been down in the dumps, i was super in those dumps the other day, but today i am feeling better. strangely dizzy and kind of sick to my stomach, but not so dumpy! tomorrow is thursday and i go to the PT again. i am almost on the healed list! i have been out of commission for so long now i can't even remember what it feels like to sweat and i can't imagine being active every day, sometimes TWICE in a day?? omg.

purge

i totally just purged all my drawers and the closet. everything that needs to be drycleaned is going to be donated. most things i haven't worn in the last year are going to be donated, too. shoes that i have tried to wear but can't stand being in for the 8hrs required at work - out. birkenstocks i've had since 1986 - staying! can't part with those!!
organized my shoes, most of which i can't wear or don't wear often but will keep for eternity because they are awesome. some i should get rid of. maybe next time around.
i would like to go through the entire house and just pitch EVERYTHING, i'm in that kind of mood, but the kids have most of their stuff confined to their rooms, so i will let it slide.
i swam. twice! yesterday and today. it was amazing. i have been so starved for some sort of physical activity that i am beside myself with its wonderfulness. i felt good, an i felt good after. well, yesterday things started to hurt on the drive back home but today, i have been feeling really good, even able to pick up the giant thing of cat food, the aforementioned purging. feeling good! what will i do tomorrow?
should i even bother mentioning how i slept in until 930 yesterday and then stayed in bed until 2:30 before finally getting up to swim? i was/am a little sick, so it was good for me!
my back has been a pain in my ass. PT all the time, no doing anything. standing is getting better but sitting pretty much blows. the one night i was in so much pain, it was a new horrible pain i didn't understand it, it had progressivly gotten worse during the day at work, but by the time i was home all i could do was lay on the floor. so that is what i did. eventually i got up and lasted about 20 seconds before i wanted to lay back down. standing on my right foot brought me to tears and just standing in general was horrible. laying down wasn't much better, i could feel my quads gradually tightening up, on the verge of cramping and then moving to my calves. it was horrible. i eventually called the nurse on call because there was no way i was going to make it through the night. we talked for a long time and she had me take some aleve and get on some ice. after a few hours i fell asleep and then in the morning, like most mornings, i was totally cured. until an hour or so later... but thank goodness that pain hasn't come back. it was horrible!
i've spent the weekend reading the 3rd of the twilight books and just chilling out. it was a sorta rough week so its been nice to just relax. can't believe its gone so fast, though.
we went to whistler!! for the xterra! i did not race. even if i was healthy i wouldn't have raced, are you kidding me? i am smart enough to know that whistler is not a place for me to be racing. mat went with us, he sat in the back seat with the kids an they loved it. he is good with them. the weekend itself was good, too. got to see friends and cheer on all the racers. it was exciting and eric did fantastic! mat did well, too, but eric broke mat's winning streak seeing as eric beat him at vashon by like 30 seconds, then mat beat eric at black diamond and portland both by about 30 seconds, so eric won this one. nationals will be an interesting one - who will win there i wonder?
everythign else has been ok i guess. i was sad to miss the two races that i had to cancel my registration for, the weather has been so amazing that its totally lame that i have not done anything! but the open water swim was delicious this morning! at least I got that in!