mood

wow, have i been in one for sure lately. its been bad. like on the verge of crying all the time, total despair type of crap. except for wednesday, it was 70 degrees and sunny out! windy as hell but warm. i will take 70 degrees with a headwind any day before 45 degrees and a tailwind. yesterday i was in that crapola mood but today i feel a little better. i skipped my workout last night. ugh, that made me feel like a wuss and more worse, too. it was the first track workout of the year, 3x1600s in zn 4 to help set times for the following workouts. i had been worried about it all week. i was ready to go and just waiting for the work day to end so i could go but then the rain came. and not just drizzle but down pour. i frantically emailed my coach but seeing as she is currently on the other side of the international dateline, i wasn't really expecting an immediate response. so i emailed a few runner friends who basically all said to just say no. at least that is what i read it as. the thought of even trying to run in that, with the little water drops splashing up onto the back of my ankles was almost too much for me to bear. so instead i went home. i have been totally tired lately, too. the past two days have been a struggle to get through work (which has thank goodness been much better lately) and all i want to do is lay on the floor and nap. but i haven't.
swimming today was good. i felt like i could have slept through it :) but was happy to have gone. i am getting better, really i am. i think.
poor seamus! yesteday she was so excited because she was going planning on riding the school bus home from school today. they have a kindergarten only school bus that is filled with just kids from her class. since we live so close, she doesn't ride it but eric arranged with the teacher and the bus driver to let her ride it today. except she woke up with a sore throat, cough and fever. and next week is spring break, so no school bus for her for a while.
counting down the days to the vegas trip. we are going to drive. goodness that is going to be a long drive and i am keeping my fingers crossed that the old volvo makes its way down and back and doesn't strand us in the middle of the desert.
on other notes, i need to get my chowing down under control. eric is dropping weight like crazy but for every pound he is dropping i seem to be gaining 5. its horrible! gotta stop with all the crap all the time, but i love me some terrible foods! love me them i do!! i have no will power, self control, nada, nothing. today i accomplished something really big though. i went to target to get some tube socks for the 1970's themed party i am going to tomorrow night. i will wear them with my star wars shirt and gym shorts from when i was in the 7th & 8th grade at harvest park middle school. i was going to wear my princess leai - jabba the hut slave costume but eric said i wasn't allowed since that is technically from the '80s. plus the way things have been going, i think i would pass more as jaba than prince leia. don't even let me tell you what eric said about my cycling shorts... so i managed to get out of target for under $100 which is a big deal but also i managed to avoid target pizza hut. one of my true loves of redmond fine dining. i love it and it is so hard for me to resist! but i did and came back to work to enjoy a frozen entree that i picked from my grocer's freezer instead.