old

omg, i am going to be old tomorrow. woe is me. i'm not handling this one so well. ok, so i am actually doing better about it today then i was a few weeks ago. OLD. like when you work with people who just turned 24, and like you aren't going to be 24 on your next birthday. woe is me. i did a mountain bike race yesterday. it was the first one in a long long time. like a year or more. i was nervous about the race which was weird but also part of the reason i don't like doing mountain bike races. back in 2009 i did a lap of this course. i did not enjoy it back then. but i've been having some health issues and we had the kids with us so i raced the beginner race so eric could race later. it turned out to be really a fun race. the 29er was so fast and handled it all so well. up and down and all kinds of stuff. i was having a ton of fun. it was sunny but not too hot but i was also like, omg are we at altitude? but i was probably more aggressive on the downhill than i have been before and i didn't run out of gears on the uphills, so that was good. the 2 rings upfront is different but it seems ok so far at least. but it was a fun day after the race, got to hang with some peeps that were in town visiting from utah and some of the other racers. then we went home with our sunburns. did i mention we drove in our awesome new car? it is so fun, the kids love it. seamus was all silly all day and when i asked her why she said she thought it might have been because of the new car. xtie asked me today why we chose that car over all the others available out there. i said that first of all, since it is eric's car, it is a bit more manly than the volvo station wagon that he was driving. i had read somewhere a long time ago that the only reason men drive volvos is because they are afriad of their wives. when i told this to eric he said yes. which reminds me that i was wearing a new summer dress on our way to the bike race on friday night and when we got to our hotel i mentioned to eric that i was surprised that he did not comment on my dress and he replied with "so?" i did think i was looking a little broad in the shoulders in that dress. i'm also looking a little broad in the face. i think the awesome swimming might be making my shoulders broader for sure. all the fat isn't helping the situation either, especially on my face, but hopfully there is some muscle in there too. i don't necessarily need a muscular face but a not as fat one wouldn't be so bad. especially now that i have all these gray hairs popping out everywhere now that i am OLD tomorrow!!! but the other reason we got the car that we did was because we want to make a bigger impact on the environment. gah!!! i hope our children's children don't burn up in the hot hot sun or drown in the overflowing oceans because of our irresponsible vehicle choice!! a friend of mine at work stopped recycling. he said the wants to add to the landfills. he said he is worried about the rising oceans and that soon the land will all be flooded, so we need to make more land by filling the landfills with our bottles and old envelopes. that was an interesting idea.