Sparklinglady: January 2013

Sunday, January 27, 2013

its been a while

i still have that 2012 wrap up sitting there, but it will probably never get posted so don't hold your breath.
but other things...
migraines. lots of them. often. so not fun. i went in on the 10t for my surgery follow up. everything was good, except the headaches and migraines. had my eyes checked too and although i am complaining about not seeing as well, apparently they are the same. no change. so that is good.
while waiting for my appointment though, i set up came in the hospital cafeteria and worked from there and had one of their more than amazing snickerdoodles. gawd they are like heaven. and they are as big as my face. and let me tell you, i've got a giant face.
so i have a cyst in my maxillary sinus. they mentioned this on the ct scan i had earlier in the month, hadn't ever been told about it so i did some internets research, promptly appologized to my neaurosurgeon about doing my own research, but asked if it could be causing the headaches. so he referred me to an ENT and i went in and not the problem. :( that is good, but bad at the same time, because like what IS causing them then? neurosurgeon thinks that it could be an after effect of the radiation, which if that is the case, i don't know how i feel about that. he says i am in the window of when things might start popping up, but if radiation is the cause then there isn't much they can do i dopn't think.
so i am taking matters into my own hands and have started an elimination diet. eating only air and water. let me tell you how awesome it has worked. a full 24 hours into it i got a horrible migraine and wasn't sure how i was going to get the kids and myself home. while i was trying to get us home, i was trying to figure out what the kids could fix for themselves for dinner. luckily eric was back from skiing so i went right to bed and he saved the day. anyway, now i am like 2 days into it. its harder and easier than paleo. its easier because i can eat rice. harder because i can't eat eggs. but seeing as the migraines typically hit mid day, like after lunch while at work, there is a good chance they could be triggered by something i am eating in the 1st 1/2 of the day. but i am wondering how long it will take me to die of the malnutrition if all i am consuming is apples and rice with an accasional bit of apple sauce.

what else. nothing really. i have been on a shopping frenzy though. i need to cool it. but i really want to get another pair of boots, just one more and then i should be done! really, for reals. ok, going to cool it for a bit. but OMG! i bought orange pants!! they are kind of burnt orange, maybe like pumpkin but ORANGE jsut the same. and i have worn them and not felt like a total idiot in them!
we celebrated our 11 year anniversary. for xmas my mom got us a night at a fancy hotel and spa in bellingham, and then we added another night onto it. it was cold as balls there, and super foggy, but it was so nice and relaxing. we got there friday night but then saturday, we woke up, had breakfast, then i took a 2 hr nap, then we went walking around, had lunch, and then the most amazing cinnamon roll ever, then another nap and then an amazing dinner of steak and awesomeness. lots of sleeping which was nice. sunday we got our butts in gear and went for a run before heading for another cinnamon roll. gawd, i might have to add those in, i am pretty sure they are not contributing to my headaches. i think its alcohol, yogurt, oranges, poptarts and the crappy coconut bar thing i had the other day when i should have had a carmelita instead.
to celebrate our 11 years, i got a new ring! we were both fiscally and socially responsible and got a cubic zirconia and I LOVE IT!! LOVE IT!! its exactly what i wanted! 11 years is steel, so we tried to find a steel band ring, but no couldn't find one i loved, but this on i love.

the scar. this was right before i cut my hair again, and by "i cut my hair" i mean, i took the scissors and did the actually cutting.

the kids usually kick fuzy out when they are playing because he likes to be in on the action, but this day he was allowed to stay.

orange pants!! and boots.

eric gets mad because i sit on the heating vents, and because i do it, the kids do it, and the cats do it, too. its warm!!

stairs and more stairs in bellingham, ok, actually fairhaven.

everyone needs a penguin ice bucket!

i found my old digital camera. this is like from 2000 or so and weighs like 20 pounds. still works, just need to get the pictures off of that card.

amazing anniversary flowers! they are still super beautiful, almost 10 days later!

view from the hotel, when the fog moved out

at the front desk of the hotel, lets just say the train sounds were brief and occasional during the day when we were there. but at night time they were long and often. the hotel even leaves you ear plugs on the night stand.

!!!

Sunday, January 06, 2013

getting it on the roll

i have a 2012 year in review post in the works. it seems long and boring, so instead, i decided i will talk about some other stuff.

lets talk about my head. and how its opening up and brains are spewing everywhere!!! ok, not really. but two weeks after the surgery, i went in to get the staples out. i had a big meeting at work where i was presenting a bunch of stuff and i had a big laugh with my boss and some other people about how in the middle of when i was presenting i would pretend to sneeze, make a big sneeze and then throw staples all over the table. THAT would have been fun. similar to when i was pregnant with sirus back in the day, i was going to pour water infront of my boss's office door and leave a note saying - having baby, went to hospital. good fun at other people's expenses!
but since the staples came out i've been having some bad headaches. like every day. they have let up some but now when they hit, they hit hard. no fun. so i went to my normal doctor and they did blood work and totally unrelated to everything i have low white blood cell count. need to get that checked.
in addition, all the internal, alegedly dissolvable stitches are maing their way out, causing the skin that had closed and healed, that was held together by the staples, to open!! totally gross. so i went in the day after xmas, the day before heading to ohio. they took a look, gave me antibiotics and sent me on my way with an emergency fix it up kit.
ohio with my mom was way fun! i was sad that i wasn't able to hook up with my friends, but i was happy to be there with my mom and to drive her around and see her friends. it was great to spend the time with her. she and i are about the same speed, she doesn't mind that i like to take naps! she also doesn't mind that i wanted to go to the gym either. we went to quaker steak and lube and the all and we visited with her friends, and we went to gorants and then to the wedding! it was the fanciest wedding i have ever been to! the bride wore a pink dress! it was beautiful, i haven't ever seen anything like it, even if it wasn't pink! they are both dancers, and know a ton of dancers so the reception was almost like watching dance show, everyone on the floor was so fun to watch! i wound up with a headache though, which was very concerning, i was on the verge of puking, it was bad, i was so worried that i was going to have to go back to the hotel early, and i ddn't want to. i was trying to figure out where i could just go lay down for a while. but i got up, got away from the music for just a bit, let my gut hang out and then saw the cookie table! once i had some cookies, i felt 100% better, i got a 2nd wind, like i didn't have a headache at all, nausea was gone, everything. even danced some. so glad it went away!
oh, but the incision - just kept opening up! i was emailing the nurse the whole time. on friday she asked if i could come in, so i did. everyone is fighting over what is going on and if anything needs to be done. i've heard everything from they need to shave my head to i need IV antibiotics and an MRI to i don't need to do anything, its no big deal. so i left on friday with instructions to not get my head wet. no hair washing, no wetting my hair to keep it from standing on end, no hats, no sweating - no exercise in the hopes that will give it enough time to heal. oh, i should mention it went from one tiny thread popping up to like 10 of them!! and goo everywhere!! so i am allegedly allowed to wash my hair tomorrow and even start exercising. so we will see, but the whole thing had me so depressed. it was a rough friday. i emailed the nurse asking if i can shave my head because i am so damn sick of it all. she said i had to wait to talk to the surgeon on thursday. they are such a not fun group - no tattoos on my head, no shaving my head! allie asked that i please video tape asking my surgeon to go with me to get a tattoo once all is said and done. eric is pretty convinced he will say yes, stand up, unbutton his shirt and reveal a chest full of tattoos, i mean, he did play football in college...at harvard... in the early '70s...
and omg, i almost forgot the best part. so i've been all woe is me, pity party and stuff, and not much fun to be around. so this morning i was moping, not wanting to get out of bed, but eric was like, dude, get out of bed, lets go look at washers and dryers - since our dryer just up and quit. i was like, ok, but let me cut my hair first. since its short i'll take the scissors to it every once in a while, but i haven't tackled the back, so i decided i was going to get her done this morning. so i stood in the shower will all my clothes on, so the hairs would just fall into the shower, and just started chopping away. chop chop chop. i was doing ok, until i found out that my neck is sorta hairy, wtf! i guess i haven't ever had my hair cut so short in the back that it was an issues, but yeah, i kind of cut it THAT short. i i grabbed eric's clippers and turned them on... nothing like your husband running in at the sound of clippers with a big old - uh, do you need any help? it looks fine. the best part of having such short hair, too is that if you mess it up (which i may or may have not done) it will grow back and not be an issue in no time flat. espeically if you don't give a rats ass.