new obsessions, addictions and sheer exhaution

dude, i can't even spell it. i am tired. really really tired. but what else is knew? i have a new additiction to ambien, ok maybe it is just a dependence. i don't care what it is, all i kinow is it knocks me out. it is supposedly non addictive and i guess its not really an addiction if when you stop taking it you don't go through withdrawl and i don't neeeeeed it, instead i just don't sleep. various doctors have been trying to get me to take it for quite a few years and i wouldn't do it. but now, hell yes, i will take it. every damn night. sleep!! glorious sleep!

today was a big day. seamus had a friend come over this morning which was fun. 2 minutes into the play date eric called to say he had double flatted on his bike and had only one tube. too bad. he rode 15 miles home with that flat.

when he got home i took off. i didn't really know what to do so i went to the running store to get some shoes for eric. they were on sale. we can all see why. the color is called sunray. they didn't have my size otherwise i would have wound up with some, too.

after the shoes i went looking for a handbag. i found many that i liked but 0 that i could justify spending so much on. why are they so expensive? the thing that gets me is that the ones at bananarepublic cost as much as the ones at the coach store. does anyone else remember back in the late '80s when bananarepublic sold t-shirts with animals and pictures of the earth on them? i looked on wikipedia and i wasn't just making all of that up. remember the old logo and catalog:

i wound up with no handbag but i did get a bad arse pair of shoes (no heel even!) that resulted in the following conversation with eric when i showed them to him:

me - like my new shoes

him - yes, they are very elvish.

me - yes, i guess they do look elf-ish.

him - no, i said elvish as in made by elves not made for elves.

of course. what was i thinking. good lord it was a long day.

so then i tried to take a nap but it lasted like 2 minutes because sirus got up from his nap. i then started getting ready to take seamus to see the doodle bops. do you know what that is? poor sirus won't ever get to see the doodle bops live in concer because i will never go back.

more about that and seamus's bday some other time. the real reason i haven't shown anything from seamus's bday is that i erased all the cookies from the computer and can't figure out the passwords to flickr and hotmail so i can't access any of the photos i loaded....

things said today:

the gentle lovers were going by ti cyles today on my way back from u-village.

my eye socket is killing me. i think i've got a zit forming in it.

my sci-fi friends always liked dr who and i couldn't understand why

oh and yeah, i decided the ashton kutcher is really hot.