nesting

can it really be called nesting when its getting ready for brain surgery?  i am sure i pushed it too far today but OMG i would have never been able to rest comfortably under massive amounts of anesthesia knowing seamus's room was such a train wreck!!!    so i cleaned her room, cleaned sirus's room and shut the playroom door.  that room, is too much.  i know their rooms will be a nightmare when i get back but hopefully, just hopefully they can stay semi tidy until i head out tomorrow morning. 
oh, and i walked the kids to school this morning with eric.  after all of this, of course i took a nap.  on and off for a few hours.  no tests today but lots of phone calls.  if i have to tell another person that i haven't taken flonase in 6 months or more i might lose it!!
so i have made a deal with the kids.  they will each get $5 if they keep their rooms tidy and make sure they are especially tide when i come back from the hospital - playroom included!  they both agreed half heartedly.
so i am waiting for this surgery thing to happen.  i am assuming that this time tomorrow i will be finished and recovering. i do have to say that as the days have gone by and head head has begun to hurt more and my eye sight has gotten worse, that i am a bit tired of this.  i have to be ok with the eyesight thing since that might not change, but i do hope it doesn't get any worse.  or will i get used to it and come to a point where i don't even notice it?  i've stopped driving because its too distracting.  thankfully my appetite has adjusted to be in line with my lack of activity.  oh and my ass got the memo too because it has sucessfully drooped down to the back of my knees.  how quickly i lose it! 
although i got the notes from the endocrinologist, and she had this to say about me:
"well nourished, pleasant and cooperative" and then also "in no acute distress".
let me  translate:
well nourished = fat
pleasant and cooperative = jolly
no acute = ugly
why is she so mean to say such things about the poor lady with the brain tumor!!!
tragedy did strike yesterday however.  i saw on the facebooks that the betsey johnson store in seattle was going out of business.  tragic!!!  so since we were there for all that blood work anyway, we stopped in and found out that betsey johnson actually filed for bankruptcy!  all stores and internets are closing!!!  she will have a few things here and there in department stores but won't have all of her beautiful boutiques with amazing dresses any more!  i almost started crying when i told the girl how i had dreamed of bringing seamus there for prom shopping ever since she was a baby!  i was tempted to snatch up a handful or more of the cute dresses for her for when she is older but didn't.  too risky and too expensive!!  instead i got two dresses, both of which when i showed them to seamus she looked at them stunned, one of which she blurted out - can i wear that?  i hadnt even told her that that was the someday plan!  so i am glad she likes it!  oh my betsey dresses!!!  i wanted to get a bunch of shoes, too.  maybe i will hold out and see if they wind up more on sale before i do that.
i wonder if i will wind up with a crazy hair cut and black eyes like they warned.  i wonder if i will feel sick or if it will hurt?  after sunday night in the ER, not sure i could feel any more sick than that.  pukarama!  i even took my spare puke bag to the blood draw yesterday, the guy laughed.  he just did his 25th consecutive Bloomsday!
if you are wondering, yes, i am starting to get a little freaked out.  but i'll be back!!